Where I Find Myself
This is where I am right now. Honestly, I feel a little lost (and I probably will for a little while) but I wanted to pause and acknowledge what I have managed to accomplish. Not too shabby for someone who was seriously debating dropping this course just a short time ago.
Still, I can’t shake this frustration. I feel like I’m not giving my best, like my indecisiveness is catching up to me in the form of consequences I can’t ignore. It’s tough to reconcile the progress I’ve made with the lingering feeling of being behind or off track.
But maybe that’s part of the journey? Learning to accept the messiness, to recognize the small victories, and to keep moving forward even when clarity feels just out of reach. I don't know, but I really don't enjoy the process when it's making my health decline. Who sepends 15 HOURS but get's 5 seconds from that??? Me I GUESS!?!
