Final Reflections
I finished the film, but not without a fight. I recently got concussed during the end of the process, trying to think clearly while my body and brain were telling me to stop. On top of that, it felt like there were constant obstacles pushing me away from making this film at all. Every time I tried to move forward, something else got in the way.
This isn’t the film I originally wanted to make. The vision shifted out of necessity, not choice, and that’s something I still feel conflicted about. The process was frustrating, exhausting, and at times overwhelming. But despite all of that, I made it. And I don’t regret pushing through.
There were moments when I couldn’t believe in myself anymore. When finishing felt impossible. That’s where other people stepped in. I want to thank my producer, Heaven, for showing up, supporting me, and helping carry this project when I didn’t have the capacity to do it alone. And thank you to my good friend Andy, for believing in me when I couldn’t believe in myself. That support mattered more than I can put into words.
This process was rough. It tested me creatively, emotionally, and physically. But I wouldn’t change it for the world. This film exists because I refused to give up, even when it felt like everything was working against me. And that, more than anything, is something I’m justified by.
(Note: There was an issue with acquiring the final version submitted to FAVASA, but it can be viewed on SOFAtube. Please note that there are a few misspellings in this version.)
